I still cant believe you’re actually gone. It doesn’t seem real at all. I keep hearing your voice and your footsteps up the stairs and your breathing at night. Nothing smells of you any more and I keep getting wafts of the hospital. I wish I could go back a few months and tell you not to do certain things, and spend every day with you. Its going to take me years to come to terms with the fact I have lost the one most important person to me in the whole world. I do and will miss you dearly daddy, every day until I die I will think of you. I love you so much. :(
I wish I could actually feel something at the moment. I wish I could see into the future or go back a few weeks. My whole life has been stolen and turned upside down and inside out and I really don’t know what to do with myself or what to think or what action to take. I wish there was something I could do. I know I am not on my own but I wish I didn’t feel like I was. I just don’t know what our lives are going to be like even 3 days from now or what we’re going to be doing. I physically can’t cry anymore but I have tears stuck behind my eyes and a lump in my throat. My head aches so much I can barely keep on one train of thought. My eyes sting so much I can barely keep them open. Everything that could possibly go wrong is constantly flickering through my head. I wish I could speak to somebody who completely understood, who already knows what is going to happen. Someone that could make it easier. I wish it could be me instead. I just want my daddy so much.
kano your brown eyes have always had me hypnotized uuuwwwwww ;))))))))
i always get myself into stupid situations
that make my brain hurt, makes me want to rip it clean out of my skull..so not fair
somebody shoot me
so i fucked up earlier
i managed to upload a picture of my arse instead of a picture of my face as my facebook profile picture, it took a whole minute to get it off. fuck knows who saw it…pahahahahaha. im such a moron ;(
wait for the man, he must have a plan
show me and make me a smile i can wear
me and you we can make up too
no use for hate if you’re wearing my shoes
be happy, be sad, be a wild rotten lamb
dont bother me now, i’m drenched to the bone
a sound of a truck and an axe and a fall
of a tree and a life and a planet so small
sick to the bone of your dour heart of stone
sick to the bone of your dour heart of stone
